Tale of a Missouri Girl came out of the main piano motif you hear over and over during the verses. It was something I came up with that I played with for a while. I liked this little riff because it was playful, yet sinister. I knew the right lyrics would present themselves eventually.
On a surface level, the story in the song was inspired by two movies I saw during this time. One was Barton Fink, a film set in 1940’s Hollywood. This film portrays the quest for glamour and success that so often ends in personal ruin for many aspiring actors and writers. The second movie I saw was 1408, a film based on a Stephen King story. In 1408, a writer researching a book on haunted destinations checks in to a room where he must live his personal nightmare and ultimately face his past and who he is.
The song is set in Hollywood, largely in a hotel, and the main character is an aspiring actress. The first line signifies that she is not being herself, either because she has something to hide, or because she has yet to figure out who “herself” really is. The rest of the song is her journey.
While it was fun to make up a fictitious story about a young lady in another time and place, the story was pretty easy to write because the story parallels my own life. As a young singer/songwriter in the 1990’s, I regarded Seattle as being my Hollywood.
I am from the Midwest. I transplanted myself to the West Coast. I pursued a dream and became a waitress. I was certainly never as naive about my ambitions as our lovely protagonist, and unlike her, I can honestly say that my intention is to have a life in the arts, not be a star. Still there are parallels. I am just retelling this story, which is the oldest story in the book.
This is one of my songs that the band I am in, Bakelite 78, performs. It is on our most recent album, What the Moon Has Done with the full band arrangement.
I had been working on a song about Narcissus when I got sidetracked by the detail of how the beautiful boy, Narcissus, ended up at the river bank where he ultimately met his demise. Researching the story led me down another path which led to the creation of a whole other song.
Narcissus was quite vain and proud. He was admired by many suitors, but none of them were good enough for him. One of these suitors was a nymph by the name of Echo. She had been a talkative nymph who was admired by Aphrodite for her voice and song. This ended when she tricked Hera, the jealous wife of Zeus. Hera put a curse on Echo so that the only thing she could say was the last word said to her. Echo fell in love with Narcissus and followed him through the woods. When he finally met this strange creature who could only repeat back his own last words, he rejected her. After this, the heartbroken Echo withered away in despair, until only her voice remained.
The goddess Nemesis soon heard of this and decided to punish Narcissus by luring him to the river, where he would become mesmerized by the only creature perfect enough for him – his own reflection. The name Nemesis is derived from the Greek word nemein, which means “to give what is due”. She is an avenger of evil deeds and undeserved good fortune. She is also a spirit of divine retribution for those who fall victim to hubris. The words “echo” and “narcissist” clearly have meanings derived from the characters in the story. The word “nemesis”, however has evolved to mean something different in modern English. According to the Merriam-Webster dictionary, the definition of nemesis is “one that inflicts retribution or vengeance” or “a formidable and usually victorious rival or opponent”. Most people associate the word with vengeance, when in actuality, Nemesis is a goddess of justice.
I starting working on this song during the peak of Occupy Wall Street, so I was thinking a lot about the ideas of justice and redistribution. I worked on it a little bit over the course of a few days and the song pretty much wrote itself. I’d say it is 1/3 current events and 2/3 classic mythology. I am finding that every instance in modern life has some parallel mythological story – and that is why these stories are so loved and continue to be told.
So, what happened to Narcissus? Well, because of Nemesis and his own hubris, he did perish. I do not necessarily think of him as a bad guy though. You will see how I feel about him when I finish his song – which I am still working on.